Reality Check!

Real life has hit hard! I work a full time job... FIRST PAYCHCEK TOMORROW! and as exciting as that is.... that means that I really do have to make myself a budget..... and my mind is flashing back to all the million times I've had a budget sheet placed in front of me, and wish that at least once I had realized that it was really applicable to my life.
And just now I got an email from my Biology 30 teacher- yes kids, I am taking a high school class- DO IT RIGHT THE FIRST TIME! and to be honest, I'm already frustrated out of my mind, and wondering why I am doing this to myself. I have to figure out how to get a text book tommorow, either by renting one from the school (if I am allowed to) or somehow finding the money for one. or finding some other means to aquire one. ugh. And I have to ask my boss if I can use the fax machine at work to submit some of my assignments. great.

I've also found one other thing that.... I don't know how to explain it.... frustrated with myself maybe..... I've started to fall fast into the pit of non-communication with Jesus. and thats sucking more than my immense lack of friends right now.... why? Because I've lost contact with that guy that cares more about me than anyone ever. and I don't know how to get back to what I had this year, but somehow its seeming like an endless mountain.

so life has gotten a bit hard in the last week, But at the same time, for all you who wonder, I love my job. I have a ton of fun doing it.... even though half the time I have no idea what I am doing and just make it up... I have alot of fun with it, and the people are great. I have a hard time seeing myself there for a long time, but for now, its alot of fun.

so with that little bit of an update, I'm off to make myself a budget!
much love,
Laurel

Useless Nattering

Oh man. Its been a while, hasn't it?!
Well... currently I am sitting in the speaker's room at Camp Kadesh, skipping lunch, cause its hamburgers and macaroni.... two things that kill my stomach... so I'm eating vanilla flavored mini-wheats! whoo hoo! The week is going good... I'm here with Dan King, on his ministry team for Sr. Teen Camp here, and yeah... Its going quite well, besides the abundant awkward moments I've had.
Life in general is quite good though. To be honest, I'm kinda dissapointed that I don't have a job yet. I think I'm getting far too used to doing nothing, and in the fall, having a job as well as an online class, will seriously suck, and be a shock to my system. Being lazy isn't fun at all... I'm telling you.
On the flip side of that, is the fact that I don't really want to work... especially at some lame-o job... But I know that eventually I'm just gonna have to suck it up, and make the best of what I can get. which, I suppose, shouldn't be that bad, considering all the options that are out there.
But seriously, I think that employers need to put themselves out there more... signs on your windows are just not efffective.... If I don't go to where you are, how are you going to get me to work there? how will I even know if I WANT to work there..... seriously, I think they need to ACTUALLY put ads in the paper.... those help a ton.
Other than 'job hunting' which I haven't been trying my best at, I don't do alot. I've caught up on alot of pop culture here in North America, by watching far too many music videos, watching my fair share of movies, reading the newspaper, and just passing by the magazine stands. quite interesting I must say. .......NOT.
so... all in all... I am quite bored. but still not motivated enough to be desperately looking for a job. but that day is comming soon. the funds are running low.
anyways... sorry for the useless nattering.... just thought I should post something now and then.
Much Love,
Laurel