Reflective Christmas
Yesterday, Reality creeped into my life again. Darn.
I went to buy groceries with Mom, something I miss dearly when I'm in England and wandering around a strange grocery store by myself, with no real direction, except that I want some digestive cookies and an idea of the luxeries that I cannot have because of my budget. So, its been great to have gone grocery shopping with my mom twice since I've been home. But on the way back, mom said something to the effect of, 'You have a week left here, and in that time you have alot of schoolwork to do, some shopping, and packing, you either need to come home sooner every night so you can get up in the morning and do stuff, or stop expecting to go out all the time.'
That sucked to hear, but as always, Mom seems to be right and I do need to get my act in gear, in order to get everything done that I want/need to.
This time at home has gone by way way too fast. I can't believe that its almost over and I have to leave again, but this time for longer. I have changed so much over these last three months, and Its been super great to be home and reflecting on that, and to really see how little I have retained from the lectures.
And then even these last two weeks, I have changed too, and thats been good too. It was wierd to see my relationships evolve with my new status of being graduated and semi-moved out. Especially the relationships with my family. Those have been the hardest relationships to watch evolve. And to evolve with those. At the same time its exciting to see those relationships where they are now compaired to where they were a year ago.
So I guess this has been a christmas of reflection in a way. And thats alright. because it has also been a christmas of new beginings, and I like that too.
I'm getting ready to head back to england though. Unlike 4 months ago, when I was petrifid to the point of.... who knows what... near insanity? this time I am so so excited. I'm excited for new room mates, for new desk mates, to see all of my friends. to drive through english countryside. to go grocery shopping at tesco's by myself. It will all be good. and I can see how it is shaping me, and moulding me, and teaching me.
So.... perhaps next time you hear from me it will be from a couch in the lounge of Capernwray Hall in Carnforth England.
Love,
Laurel
PS- if you want to see me before I leave, time is running out, and I still have a phone in my house, and an email adress that recieves mail, so get in touch with me, and we can grab coffee, or breakfast, or lunch, or wander a mall, or walk down broadway, or see a movie, or go to Value Village. There are a number of things we could do together. and if none of that appeals to you, we could just make hot chocolate and look at my pictures. I'm waiting to hear from you!
I went to buy groceries with Mom, something I miss dearly when I'm in England and wandering around a strange grocery store by myself, with no real direction, except that I want some digestive cookies and an idea of the luxeries that I cannot have because of my budget. So, its been great to have gone grocery shopping with my mom twice since I've been home. But on the way back, mom said something to the effect of, 'You have a week left here, and in that time you have alot of schoolwork to do, some shopping, and packing, you either need to come home sooner every night so you can get up in the morning and do stuff, or stop expecting to go out all the time.'
That sucked to hear, but as always, Mom seems to be right and I do need to get my act in gear, in order to get everything done that I want/need to.
This time at home has gone by way way too fast. I can't believe that its almost over and I have to leave again, but this time for longer. I have changed so much over these last three months, and Its been super great to be home and reflecting on that, and to really see how little I have retained from the lectures.
And then even these last two weeks, I have changed too, and thats been good too. It was wierd to see my relationships evolve with my new status of being graduated and semi-moved out. Especially the relationships with my family. Those have been the hardest relationships to watch evolve. And to evolve with those. At the same time its exciting to see those relationships where they are now compaired to where they were a year ago.
So I guess this has been a christmas of reflection in a way. And thats alright. because it has also been a christmas of new beginings, and I like that too.
I'm getting ready to head back to england though. Unlike 4 months ago, when I was petrifid to the point of.... who knows what... near insanity? this time I am so so excited. I'm excited for new room mates, for new desk mates, to see all of my friends. to drive through english countryside. to go grocery shopping at tesco's by myself. It will all be good. and I can see how it is shaping me, and moulding me, and teaching me.
So.... perhaps next time you hear from me it will be from a couch in the lounge of Capernwray Hall in Carnforth England.
Love,
Laurel
PS- if you want to see me before I leave, time is running out, and I still have a phone in my house, and an email adress that recieves mail, so get in touch with me, and we can grab coffee, or breakfast, or lunch, or wander a mall, or walk down broadway, or see a movie, or go to Value Village. There are a number of things we could do together. and if none of that appeals to you, we could just make hot chocolate and look at my pictures. I'm waiting to hear from you!
posted by Laurel at 5:32 PM
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i want to grab a coffee, breakfast, lunch/got to a movie, wander the mall, value village.........................
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