Hush...

This morning was our first quiet morning. It was perfect. I packed up my backpack with my bible, a notepad, and my homework. I got a wool blanket from the cupboard, and filled my hot waterbottle. I set out around the loop to find a good solitary place, and found the fire pit with a dry bench. perfect. I went to start on some work, and God was just like 'nope, not today, this morning, you are spending with me.' so I closed my book, and just listened to the worship music on my mp3 player, and enjoyed the beauty of England. I let go of alot of things that I had been holding onto far too closely, and read Song of Songs- my favorite book. Now, don't be shocked about this, I read it as if it is God's love letter to me- the 'lover' parts anyways.
I had been so... distant from god the last year and a half, and I am loving re-falling in love with Jesus.
I am learning that My heart has desires, and those are gifts from God, but before I get them, I need to delight in God. Thats a hard process, because I need to let go, I need to stop being angry at God, and I need to know how much he loves me. And as hard as it is, it is also oh so good.
I think I am talking in circles about the same things, but I don't know if you are getting the picture- GOD IS GOOD AND I LOVE HIM.
A week ago, I'm not sure if you would have heard me say that, but today, I mean it with every fibre of my being, and all of it is screaming, and laughing as I tell you that. my stomach is in knots with butterflies that you get when you have a crush on someone. And I've got that mischevious grin on my face that can only mean trouble- you know the one.
Have a great week everyone!
Laurel